Gracie Girl Blog

Yup, I’m quitting people. They’re too messy, too unpredictable, too hurtful. I’m just gonna not get close to anyone anymore and slowly back away from friends who have “too much information” about me and probably would abandon me in the apacolypse. I mean, why would I need anyone more than my dog? At least HE loves me unconditionally. He tracks in dirt some of the time but hey, people are still messier.

Smart one, Grace. You don’t even have a dog.

This particular feeling reminds me of when you say something awkward, get really embarrassed, and then swear to yourself you’ll never open your mouth again. It never really works, does it?

Nope. And neither does becoming a hermit. God created us to need eachother. The more you push away from people, the more hurt you’ll find and the more hardships you’ll encounter. I’ve found it’s better to accept now that people are messy and people will hurt you. But people are worth it. So worth it.

2016 seems to have brought a trend in my life of leaving. People, animals, relationships. I’m not going to say it’s not a big deal or pretend that I handle it great. No, it’s really stinking hard. There’s a lot of tears involved. There’s a lot of overthinking and exhaustion from doing so. Life is never completely stable.

Now you’re probably thinking, “Wow Grace thanks for the uplifting message! Good to know your life sucks.”

No, my life is pretty great actually. Is it always pretty? Definitely not. Worth it? Yes.

When you feel deep pain from a lost friendship, be thankful because that means you loved a lot and probably made some really great memories. When someone walks out of your life and it really makes you feel unstable, again be thankful for the time you had with that person. When life overall is messy, know that that is completely okay.

The key thing I’m leaving out? God. God is always stable. He doesn’t change like our world does. He is constant. Always loving. Always present. Always caring for us. If this wasn’t true, I’d take the hermit idea and RUN with it. Build an epic tree house to live in or something.

Thankfully, when we are hurt, broken down, and confused, God is there. He’s not messy like our world is. As I have learned and am still learning, He is the single thing we can depend on, no matter what.

With God as my foundation, I can walk into any relationship confidently, knowing that whatever happens, He will remain. This is something I’m still learning how to do, and it’s really hard sometimes. I just know that I can’t quit people, and I most definitely can’t quit God.

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. -Colossians 3:12